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Sunday, January 20, 2008


It's been a long road down. And along the way, i've taken a shine to several girls.

But i guess finally i made up my mind.

Very happy i did, because there's no more guessing and wondering and all that.

But here's the next step: How do i take this one step further?

She's like, so near yet so far. Same school. SAME faculty. SAME year. SAME course. Hell, SAME OPTION SELECT. But of all the people i know, i don't know her. Sigh. Nor ANY of her friends.

I suppose i'll have to depend on YJ and C to "help" me out in this. Well, more or less anyways.

Damn, why am i so attracted to her? I'll say what i've told everyone. Well, everyone whom i wanted to let in on this :D

She's cute, kinda sweet in her own way. She's always like, so happy and cheerful. Never frowning. Never sad. Seeing her smile and laugh always; heart-melting. Absolutely. Smiling to myself quietly when she's around, lost in my own world. A world i hope she might fill some day.

When my mind isn't busy thinking about something urgent, it always wanders off to that part where i store my memories of her. Hmmm. Happy to let it wander i guess.

Well i guess that's all for now. She makes me really happy. Hope i'll be able to know her better soon.

And i hope i can tell her one day: "J, i think you're a really special someone".

-F.E-


.CooL.1:50 AM

Thursday, January 17, 2008


My sad friends, it's time for some LOL!

http://blogs.techrepublic.com.com/career/?p=139&tag=rbxccnbtr1

Enjoy :D

-F.E-


.CooL.1:46 AM



Ok new post time! Because i'm bored!

Maya: Needs to stop thinking so much. A bad past has been settled, now it's time to move on and be happy. Think of the "thankfully-now's" instead of the "if-we-didn't's". If you get what i mean :D

Drew: Needs to stop piling on the hate. Too much anger is bad. There is BSG now! Let her be the future. Stop looking back on before. You can't hate forever bro. SMLE MORE. Like the martian on your shirt LAWLZ.

Jeffrey: (although i'm not sure if he reads TTL) Same as Maya. Move on and be glad. Learn more GG!

Joel: NEEDS NEW CUTE GIRL. I think. No la i just want to find someone whom i love and can depend on. And who loves me back, obviously. The search continues!

Not that it went anywhere in the first place. Oh well. /facepalm

Fuck my stupid cough i keep *cough* coughing *cough*.

/RAWR

/cough :(

-F.E-


.CooL.1:20 AM

Wednesday, January 16, 2008

Handicaps

Damn, the Wangan races felt so good yesterday! XD

Thanks for the time guys =)


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.CooL.10:00 AM

Tuesday, January 15, 2008

wtf?

well. He -is- cute. But I just know him only, so I don't wanna chiong. Scully scare him away.

Friday. Friday most likely meeting at Bugis. Mass Wangan slamming, blocking and pushing. Mass OR2/SP extreme drifting..Only hope is that he is around so I can beo him.

~

You know, when I read through one of -his- SMSes (as in, ex-him), he was saying that he wanted to keep the Claddagh ring that I gave him to remember me by. But he also is telling me that he feels so much hurt. I'm just curious as to why he would want to keep something that reminds him of the pain.

I know it could mean that he wants to remember the good times that we had. I'm wearing a Claddagh ring also, but I will point the tip of the heart out, to show that I'm currently available. But my heart still longs for him at times. I didn't leave him because I didn't like him anymore, but because I needed to stop giving everyone heartache.

Was this the right thing? He said he would even change his handphone number after returning me the stuff he borrowed from me.

I'm not emo, I'm just..sad and confused.


Maya




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.CooL.10:14 AM

Saturday, January 12, 2008


dinner at billy bombers yesterday was fun! together with joel, michelle and melissa, although he cannot click with the both of them first time meeting(i was the almost the same LOL).

was laughing quite alot cause those 2 were talking about their good old days they had in school, cranked me up a little but not to the extent of heart's content.

before me and joel went to met them at cathay for dinner, saw my 4th ex on the way from suntec(after a game of hotd4). kinda pissed me off when i started to think of what she said to me in the past.

you can't stop me from hating something/someone, when i had some bad past with them. it's like a poison which grows after you eat it until somebody gives you the antidote, which in this case, nothing in this world could have.

so maybe if you guys saw me as somewhat cold or not talking much, this is the reason behind why.

random facts about ice
- i get pissed when i see people i don't like =/
- i walk away as i try not to see them/they seeing me. it's an eyesore
- either all quiet or suddenly becomes decisive on which route to take to a destination after seeing somebody i dislike.

-=[ICE]=-


.CooL.1:00 AM

Thursday, January 10, 2008


can't sleep,
doing flash,
think of her,
was all i am doing since 8pm on Wednesday.

so.. tired.. i guess this is what will happen if you got no ideas for animation and suddenly thought of some when the deadline draws near. it's like a double edge sword.

you might do better as compared to those who submitted first cause you can re-adjust what you have made, but you also have a risk of not completing it, resulting a bad situation.

guess i can't help it since i was like this since young to keep thinking of what to do and scramble through before the deadline.

"Dear God, the only thing that I ask of You,
is to hold her when I'm not around,
when I'm much too far away.

We all need the person who can be true to you,
but I left her when I found her,
and now I wished I'd stayed.

Cause I'm lonely and I'm tired,
I'm missing you again.. Oh no..
Once again.."

some of the feelings i have now are written in this song, Dear God - Avenged Sevenfold.

damn, i feel emotional now. gotta stop and go to sleep soon.

guess life isn't always a smooth sailing one

-=[ICE]=-


.CooL.3:15 AM

Sunday, January 6, 2008


another road, a brand new day
long crossed the line, don't wanna stay
i take the journey forth, push back memories fond
its all i can do to keep on going strong

a glance backwards, takes me to tears
brings back the past and the chilling fears
always left feeling so lost and spent
wanna let go but don't seem like i can

someone save me from these thoughts
for so long i've tried, so long i've fought
don't wanna die with them clinging on
save me now before i'm too far gone

Dear God, save me.


.CooL.2:36 AM

Friday, January 4, 2008


lol maya too early to say anything lah.

now i try to maintain a friendship distance with her 1st. if got chance i definitely will go after her, also not so soon, got bloody army to go to -.-

anyway, TEAM BULLET FTW! lolol pwned.

maya you want some uber hard aeroplane shooting game? xD

-=[ICE]=-


.CooL.3:36 PM



Ahaha.

Thanks for the optimism my dear Maya. Unfortunately, given the current situation, i don't dare to say too much yet. I barely know anything about her right now... But i sure wouldn't mind knowing more, given the chance :D

As for Drew, well, i think i'd best let him speak his words himself :D

And thanks for the ring! Seriously, i've been wanting a new ring for a long time... This will be an awesome gift :D

Team BUL7ET for life, homie =p

-F.E-


.CooL.12:20 AM

Thursday, January 3, 2008


Yeah~

Seems like both J and A are gonna get attached!

xD

Really a happy new year now~

I'm gonna..well, soon, give you guys your long, over-due birthday presents XD

Ice, the chain for the pendant dun buy. I get for you guys.

FE, have to wait a bit for the ring, coz i got a wrong size..Just realised my finger size is about the same as both of yous. Which means Team Bull3t FTW~~~

XD


.CooL.10:54 AM

Wednesday, January 2, 2008


How?

That one single question went through my mind tonight when i saw you.

Who?

Joel comments: "She's my KOFG to Drew's BSG. He met her at a bus stop; my memories are of her playing KoF, hence the name. And on a side note, she has a hairstyle reminiscent of Kula from KoF, whom she plays rather well."

But how, i ask myself? How do i get to know you? For weeks i've silently watched while you effortlessly beat the CPU at KoF. It isn't hard to beat the CPU, that much i know.

But it's how you play that first caught my attention. There are many girls who play fighters, that's for sure. I remember beating a Millia scrub at GG at Bugis some months ago, and she wasn't too bad looking. Not unlike you. But case in point: she was a scrub.

But you're not. It's true that i don't know a damn thing about KoF, especially Max Impact. But fighting games are in my blood, and i can tell by instinct. You are way more than a random scrub. How many times have i seen you already? You play your Kula with precision and a skill that's unseen in any girl who plays KoF. Hell, it's unseen in any female fighting gamer.

Until you. And your Ninon and Mai aren't half as bad either.

Why am i so attracted to you? To be honest, i can't say for sure.

Well, for one, you look very pretty to me. Revealing sluts are dime a dozen. You're not like that. You don't feel the senseless need to show off all the skin you can like them.

My friend says that you look like a plain jane. Nothing special. Nothing out of the ordinary. Perhaps that's it then. I don't want someone exotic, or attention seeking. Not someone who shows off all the skin that she can, or dresses crazily.

No. You're simple. And after all the complications i've been through, maybe i've decided that simple is still the most special.

But if there's one thing that's truly special about you, it's the dedication that i feel you've put into your hobby, your passion, whatever you might call it. Maybe that's the other major attractive feature about you that draws me to you.

I saw you tonight, and that made my day. In fact, the sole reason i wanted to go down today was because i had hoped to see you, knowing you frequent there. And i thank God for making my wish come true, because i saw you.

Did you notice me? I don't know. I think so. I hope so. And i hope that it wasn't with a negative connotation that you did, because whenever i see you, i feel happy to.

What is it i feel for you now? It's not love, that's too early. But i know that it isn't just a mere infatuation or a crush.

It's an attraction to a rare gem. Rare in this gaming world that i call my second home. Amidst a myriad of uber-revealing sluts, useless players, and of course, males (duh), you're a rare find that i have this powerful attraction to.

I feel this draw towards you, this special person who seems to share my passion.

What is my next step? I don't know. I've never been shy or hesitant around new people. Strangers. Hell, i went around wishing random people "Happy New Year" on New Year's Day.

Until it comes to someone i'm so powerfully attracted to. Someone like you.

Will my feelings develop further? That i can't say for sure. Only the Lord knows the future. But right now, i would quite like them to. But only if you reciprocate. And it is with a fervent wish that i pray you do.

Because you're quite like nobody else i've ever known. And that's what i like about you :)

-F.E-


.CooL.11:16 PM