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Wednesday, May 7, 2008


its 4:39 in the morning and i can't put my mind to rest, of the things that i done recently.

dota, a game which i shunned, 3 years ago after i found myself with a bleak future after series of defeat. now, i set myself for competition.

it all began with a teammate called violet, who i randomly met online on bnet. he played a few rds with me and told me certain things about the clan when i wasn't around. after that he asked me if i wanted to go for competition.

soon after i played almost every night non-stop, repeating the exact same thing i did 5 years ago, but this time i had a goal.

came to 1 night in bnet, was playing with a group of random people and there i got to know this female player (can't really confirm 100% that she was a girl) but yeah. she was friendly and a great dota i came across.

she taught me some of the advanced technics of dota for 5v5 and 2v2. and as u know, sometimes you can't help with feelings. i sort of 'fell' for her =/

but this didn't last.

1 night while playing dota with her. was expecting a nice last game with her before my work starts on half a day later. somehow things didn't went the way i wanted to, some guy just denied her chance of 'farming' and she got pissed. she told me to custom kicked that guy but i didn't respond to her.

she left, me in a disarray. now i'm trying to find back the pieces that gave me motivation.

insomnia.

-=[ICE]=-


.CooL.4:39 AM